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Taking Little Steps

So it's been over a year since the last time i posted on here? man, that's crazy. So much has happened since then. This is lookig like it's gonna be a long entry.

So when i last posted i was all depressed because it was summertime and i wasn't gonna get to see my friends from school. well now it's once again summertime but i no longer have august to look forward to. i'm done. and as happy as i am for no longer having to get up and go to school, my sadness in that times 10 because i know that i'm probably not gonna see any of those people again.

this past school year, around the first of december, i was kicked out of the house i was living in with my dad, kym, and the kids. the house belonged to kym's mother and she decided that since i was 18 and didn't have a job, that i was too lazy to reside in her home.  i wish i could say there were no hard feelings towards her but honestly, it was really hard to take that $35 check she gave me at graduation and smile at her. that woman made me lose a bit more than $35.  what hurt even more, though was the fact that when it happened, my dad didn't even do anything about it. he simply looked at me and asked me where i was going to go. 

anyways, the woman gave me one extra night to stay there before she started getting all my stuff together and changing the sheets while i was at school. i didn't tell anyone for a day or so. my nana was out of town and since i used to live in her house, i found it easy to just pop the window open and make myself at home. not to mention, it made it alot easier to get to and from school from douglasville in contrast to smyrna. when i finally did call her and let her know what was going on she bitched at me for not telling mom yet. the water had been turned off at her house so mom and jay decided that i needed to come up there and mom would just take me to and from school. i was at least an hour late for school every day that week. after nana got back, i talked to her and we made the deal that i could stay with her until graduation, that way i could keep going to the school.  after that i realized that i needed to tell someone at the school, because otherwise i'd be in trouble for all of my tardies i had built up. i decided to confide in the priciple and made her promise not to tell anyone but i have reasons to believe she didn't hold to that promise very well. there are 2 or 3 certain teachers that really helped me with everything and were there for me when i needed it and for that, i'm eternally grateful. the world needs more people like those ladies

After i got settled in, everything ran smoothly. most of the people from praise still don't know what happened though. but now that graduation is over, our deal is up and i was left with another decision to make. Savvi cut my hours really badly so i had hardly any money saved up, so getting an apartment w/ a roomate was entirely out of the question. which leads m to where i am now. i'm in the process of moving in with my mom and jay up here in Chamblee. not my first choice but it enables me to find a new job, get money and save some up. not only that, but it's close to so many schools, it's gonna take me until fall to just decide WHERE i want to go!

i don't plan on staying here very long, though, maybe a year or so. long enough to save something up and get a bit of schooling under my belt before i get my own place. that way i can get in the groove of things slowly instead of having to break in through the window.

so that's my story thusfar. nothing else too special has happened but hopefully in won't be a year before my next post. until next time!!

hey you guys.. well its officially summertime and so far my vacation has been very.. uhh.. interesting.

 i cant believe that after next year, i'll be out of school forever (until college, anyways).. but the 12 year journey that was started when i was 6 years old will be over.. it's like that's the day that my life has been waitinleading up to all along.. ahh.. its crazy.. but anywho, ima get off of here because I have abunch of little people hanging all over me.. leave me some comments! --Nikki

The End of Spring Break

..is here..

looking from the outside in, this was probably one of the worst spring breaks i've ever had.. (granted a couple of years ago i had a week where my best friend who had lived with me for almost 2 years moved out, they shut down my four-wheeling trails, my fourwheeler then broke, my great grandmother died on mother's day and then my OTHER best friend who was living with us at the time moved out.. that was sometime in May, though, so it doesn't count ) and for the most part, i kinda agree.. however it could've been alot worse just as easily as it could've been better.. i'm not complaining.. just venting.. i didn't get to go see my cousins in kansas, ride horses in kentucky or even enjoy the scenic routes of a road trip. i've decided that i'm sending the rest of today outside taking pictures and driving around.. but my mother informed me that my insurance has ran out 'cause she hasn't paid it yet.. ugh.. maybe its a good thing. i dunno.. i don't really feel like hanging out with anyone except one person that i've got on my mind and i don't know why they're on it. so random.. i guess i'll just go for a drive anyways. until next time --Nikki  

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i'm sick.. of pollen.. it has hit me and buddy when it hits, it hits HARD.. i'm so annoyed right now because i feel like the first part of my spring break has been nothing but working my butt off.. i've been helping my mom move (*ahem* excuse me, scratch the "helping"..) i've been moving my mom since first thing saturday morning and fell goin up the steps backwards with the couch. i really think i might've done something to my back because it's still hurting really bad. . on top of that, i've been looking forward to going to kansas and seeing ashlyn and rusty for the longest freakin time but it's been put off for so long now there's talk about us not even going. we were supposed to leave YESTERDAY and now it's been put off until sometime tomorrow morning. lets do the math, shall we?

• it takes over 16 hours one way to get to kansas
• that's over 1000 miles
• they're talkin about leaving tomorrow morning around 10
• putting us there around.. 4am wednesday morning? (that's in our time zone, btw, making it even earlier once we get there)
• i'm wanting to be home by/before sunday, that way i can be with the rest of the fam on Easter
•  putting into consideration the fact that it's gonna take 32 hours roundtrip 
• and that brooke and i have to home home early enough to get a good 8 hours worth of sleep for school tuesday morning

 it's lookin like we're only gonna be there for like 2 or 3 days.. also considering how much money it's taking for us to just get up there i can see why they say it's not gonna be worth even going..but still..it sucks that i got my hopes up.. again.

  so now i'm sitting here mentally and physically exhausted.. i'm ready to just drive.. thinkin about just going to sweetwater state park and camping out for awhile.. that'd be grand

                                                                                                                    until next time --Nikki 

Spring is here..

The beginning of spring break has always been the mark of spring for me.. the freedom, the knowledge that school is almost out for the whole summer, and the fact that a new cycle of life has begun for the plants and animals..

 ..so today i stayed after school for a little while trying to get to a finishing point on painting the lion in our gym, but i couldn't stay long because everyone was so ready to leave and get out of the school for vacation. it wasn't until i got home that i realized that i'm not going to be seeing any of these people until school starts back.. and.. for the first time in my life, i got depressed about being out of school. it's a crazy feeling but very real at the same time, and it's hard to explain the intensity of it because it lead to alot of other thoughts that i don't feel like typing about ..but to anyone who reads this, just know that i'm praying for you this week. that God keeps you safe in your travels, whether it be to florida, kentucky or even 2 minutes up the road to the grocery store. may everyone have a happy and safe spring break!!